I spent the day at Curry’s PC World, playing Starcraft II on a gaming computer that I will never allow myself to purchase in my life.

It was right after I had made a grocer run to the Sainsbury’s across the street from Warren Street station. Thoroughly filling my tote bag in addition to my backpack with groceries, I set out and walked past a Curry’s PC World after turning the wrong direction. I walked in and discovered that there is a policy at Curry’s PC World where anyone can trail their gaming computer for up to an hour. Already downloaded were games such as League of Legends, Starcraft II, and Fortnight. So, I set up shop and logged in on Battle.net (although I had to reset my password because I had forgotten it).

My parents never let me play video games. This is a known fact among my elementary school friends, but there did exist a spectrum of the types of games I was able to sneak into my evenings. PlayStation games were fine, as they did not require a password. Computer games, however, were another story because they required access to an account I did not have a password to. I personally did not own Starcraft, but my cousins did, and when I would visit them over Chinese New Year, sometimes my cousin would allow me to play his games on his computer, which included Starcraft. I would also watch a lot of Starcraft games on YouTube to compensate for my lack of access.

I grew up with this desire to play Starcraft despite not having the opportunities to do so. I have watched countless streamers and casters of Starcraft because I wanted to stay connected to a game I have never played. Oh, how many hours did I spend watching HuskyStarcraft videos when I got home from school in high school with my school rented computer. I have played the game enough times to be counted with one hand, but I have never had the opportunity to do so through my own means. So, when I finally have the opportunity once again to realize my childhood desires, I quickly took my chance.

I spent a long time on that gaming computer, going through game after game and flipping through Terran, Protoss, and Zerg as if my life depended on it. After the end of my stay, I think I have developed an affinity for Zerg because it is one of those races where cost efficiency was not an issue. By the time I had concluded my stay, I genuinely believed that my eyes were bleeding. The store was not particularly full, and the employees never bothered to kick me out even after continuous hours of game play. In such instances, I thank the indifference of the universe.

But, seeing as I don’t feel myself devolving into another cycle of self-destruction (as of now), I think I will take a break from Starcraft.