I have spent so much time… doing useless things. I have read countless books on the metaphysics of love and melancholia, only to marginally understand this subject better than I had understood it previously. I notice in my conversations that I am only able to articulate marginally more nuance than I could previously. It seems […]Read more "time wasted / too late"
I just sat in on a meeting for one hour recapping this past week’s sales. There is plenty of interesting information going around. I would sometimes scribble a note in if I hear something especially provocative. The notebook that I had received during my first day is filled with such scribbles. But, for the most […]Read more "paid to exist"
Fall is an interesting word. It is the season where leaves die, slowly, dangling onto a dying branch with all the power a plant could muster, only to be blown to the ground by the wind, indifferently. The leaves are struggling, constantly repeating the same cycle over and over again. They grow to their hearts […]Read more "i want to be a cloud"
You know that scene in Game of Thrones… when Jon and Ygritte go into the cave… and, you know, does the… thing… and then, a few episodes later, when Ygritte get shot with an arrow… she says, “We should have stayed in that cave.” When I watched this scene for the first time, I thought […]Read more "snow and shit"
Some notes from a day of corporate citizenship at a community center in Hudson Yards — The train smells like shit. The car I was in was split in half between two sections. On one side, there was a homeless man with an entire shopping cart filled with his belongings. He also carried an Ikea […]Read more "finding holden in hudson yard"
Lately, I’ve been wondering if I am a misanthrope. I am not getting along with people. I don’t remember there ever being a time in my life where I got along with people. It always seems as though I am the outsider pretending to belong in a world of beautiful people. Here I am, living […]Read more "this world is not for me"
I don’t know why I have had watermelon for dinner for the past four days. You cannot go wrong with watermelon for dinner in the same way that you can go wrong in life. Since I have gone wrong in life, I return to watermelon for dinner for a sense of coherence. Watermelon has been […]Read more "watermelon for dinner"